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Monday 4 March 2013
Accidental visual poetry
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content: "I don't know. Sometimes I feel like an entirely different person.
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Friday 1 March 2013
Spot the subtext
‘You’re dragging your feet’
‘I’m not dragging my feet it’s how I walk, I always walk
like this’ she said.
‘News to me’ and they passed into the home ware aisle
‘Do we really need new bedding; the one we have is fine.’ He
rolled bits of fabric between his fingers
‘The one we have is old and faded and you spilled soup on
it’
‘And you stained it all with your hair’
‘I thought you liked my hair!’
He put his hand up to his eyebrow and stroked it slightly, ‘I
didn’t say I didn’t.’
‘Fine’ she said.
‘Fine’ he replied.
And then…
‘Child’ he muttered
‘What?’ she wasn’t really listening, she was counting up the
amount of money a month she spent on dye.
‘I said this is for a child’ and he walked away from her.
‘Why don’t we have something fresh and light? Something
that’ll air out the room’
He stopped and stared, ‘If you want to air out the room open
a window’
‘It would be too cold’ she said grabbing her sides
‘It’s cold enough already’ he shrugged, ‘How about black,
it’s easy’
‘No! Everything is black, black and dark I’m sick of the
dark.’ And she sat down on the display bed with her hands tugging at the sides
of her hair. One by one she felt them ping out her head.
‘You like black. You wanted a black bedroom.’ He dipped down
beside her, half bent and half straight lightening his voice slightly
‘Well, now I don’t’
‘Since when?’ he stood up straight.
‘Since awhile. I want a change. Don’t you?’ she asked
He scratched the back of his
head the way he always did when he was anxious. It left red claw marks on his
neck and she would always count them when he was sleeping beside her. Grunting.
Snoring. He didn’t think he snored.
‘I think it looks fine.’ He shrugged
Wednesday 27 February 2013
working progress
Clack, clack, clack, clack. Dum.
Enter.
Can fingers sweat? I don’t know if they can but mine feel
like they’re pouring.
Replying. Elipses, elipses. Stop. Why did it stop? Why has
she stopped typing.
“Hi, my name is Brian.
I love your profile picture, you seem like a fun person, fancy a chat?”
Was it creepy? Was it sleazy? When people say fun they don’t
usually mean fun, they mean sex. Did I mean sex?
Elipses. And a stone in the water sound.
“Hi Brian, it’s nice to meet you. You must have a good read
on people ;) so tell me about yourself?”
Wink face. That means flirting. That means I’m flirting.
Clack, clack, clack, clack. This isn’t so bad, it’s okay.
It’s just a conversation. Some well deserved adult conversation.
A burst – “Dad, dad, dad, dad!”
Slam the laptop down, “What have I told you about knocking!
You lot have no manners! Can I not get two minutes to myself for Christ sake”
His little face crumples like a wet napkin and his mouth
goes that oval shape I hate. “Oh don’t cry. Don’t cry” – between sobs he
snivels, “I j-j-ust wanted a st- story”
It’s not a big ask, and I like books after all I work with
them. All day. Everyday. Non stop. It’s not a big ask but why do I feel like
he’s asking me to flip the world inside out for him?
Snot and tears.
High beams through the blinds. He wipes some tears from his
eyes and says “Mummy’s home” excitedly.
Ah,
Christ.
The will of being ill
There were a few things I loved about going to the doctors.
The way the chairs were arranged around the room made perfect tunnels circling
around the room and you could pinch the hair on old women’s legs if you tried
hard enough. Even when it was sunny outside the room was cloudy, the maroon
wallpaper, the red chairs, the brown carpet all made up a time capsule of the
60’s. It smelled of dust after rain, but I wouldn’t be able to name that smell
for a number of years later. A massive crack cuts through the quiet, “Kirsty
Allan, Room 6 please” with a high ping at the start of the word six.
After my appointments
my mum would take me to the chemist across the road and I would marvel at the
colour coded array of shampoo’s and play with one that looked like my Gameboy.
She would buy me lemonade and a magazine. I would be excited to have my new
prescription because it felt like I was getting better already just sniffing the
faux lemon of the medicine.
Eventually I was too big to pull at the threads of people
under chairs, and I nervously thumbed through women’s magazines that my mum was
reading. I would flip over the celebrities in the ring of shame, circling a
nipple that slipped out of a dress. My face would burn as I quickly skipped anything
that said the word ‘sex’ or ‘sexy’ in case my mum saw. The stuffing of the
chair was coming out and I would pick it and keep it under my nails. The carpet
tiles under my feet shuffled and I would roll it, counting down from 60
waiting. It sounded like someone was playing static from the video player, a
muffled voice mutters, “Kirsty Alln Rm 9 please” I looked to my mum and she
says it’s going to be okay and I use her arm as a crutch. The operation had
worked, but the medicine hadn’t. I took in a breath of musty air and felt my
heartbeat slow a little.
It was the air that made me choke this time, and I squeezed
my inhaler feeling my chest tighten. I see a silver haired woman glare as I
spluttered so I scraped the chair in her direction. I read the posters around
the room, ranging from how not to beat your children to how to make sure you’re
not having a stroke. The seats had changed, or was it the padding? I had to
move my arse around the seat to get comfortable. There were toddlers fighting
over coloured beads attached to wire on the table and a young boy was so
vigorous he moved the little table mid way across the room. I sort of laughed
and wished they had that there when I was young, and rolled my favourite bit of
carpet under my seat. The horrible static sound rang out, “kisssshhyy alln room
phowar”. My boots clambered as I walked up to reception and pealed the sealing
off the wooden panel as I almost whispered through the window, “excuse me, was
that me?” A pair of glasses peered at me and asked, “name please?”
I didn’t look ill. That was my main issue. I felt my stomach
feel like knotted waves, turning from drizzle to a hurricane as I was walking
up the path, walking normally over cobble stones I used to jump on, one by one
with my mum when I was little. I don’t look ill. I was thinking about the old
dears, the men with hair coming out their ears, the newborn babies with mothers
that had milky spit slide down their clothes. I would go in and take a deep
breath, open the door that would creak in the way that makes my teeth want to
crawl away shivering from my mouth, I would stand on the grey stain on the worn
carpet and say, “Kristy Allan for Dr.
whoever’s name I had written on my hand this week” I would sit down and
kick my bit of carpet if it was free and hopefully not catch the eye of anyone
as I read my book. That is how it goes down.
The automatic doors pulled apart and I stepped in, I pushed
the door and waited for the creak, but my teeth remained in place. I went to
take my breath and instead of the familiar musk I was assaulted by fumes of
plaster, of paint and bleach. I looked up from my shoes for the first time and
realised that my surgery wasn’t my surgery anymore. It was pale yellow like my
medicine from when I was little. The carpet was no longer tiled and stained
with mysterious grey patches, it was replaced in a solid blue material that was
like felt on my finger tips. I pressed my finger nails into the palm of my
hands as I went up to reception,
“Hi, uhhm Kristy allan for – “
she interrupted me,
“you only have to let us know if you’re late. Go take a seat”
I don’t know what my
favourite seat is anymore so I sit across from the kids table and spun a bead.
I jumped up when I didn’t hear the static, nothing cut the silence except a booming
echo of “Kristy Allan, Room 2 please”
They even got my name right.
Lame-o poem
I cannot turn a head.
I cannot turn a phrase.
And in the night I can't
turn my spine to your side of the bed.
I cannot speak but if I did it would be a
mothball and it would gather
it would fall
And I would be meek in my words.
what can I do.
What I can do.
Monday 11 June 2012
A rusty poem.
Red lights flood my eyes
And you keep going
A voice that sounds like gravel when my movement are just rusted
The ticking and churning beneath my breast
it squeaks
it loosens
But the lights are switching faster and their flickering in my blood
Carried by the smell of wet concrete
There's just those lights and nothing else.
And you keep going
A voice that sounds like gravel when my movement are just rusted
The ticking and churning beneath my breast
it squeaks
it loosens
But the lights are switching faster and their flickering in my blood
Carried by the smell of wet concrete
There's just those lights and nothing else.
Sunday 1 April 2012
A poem written whilst incredibly drunk.
We wear masks
You and I
We change
and the night isn't us anymore
I should wear her
or at least her perfume.
I breathe out ashes.
You and I
We change
and the night isn't us anymore
I should wear her
or at least her perfume.
I breathe out ashes.
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